Unborn, Undying

Just paid my rent early today, which means I have $1.40 to my name right now. Oh yeah...

posted by WM @ 10:55 0 comments

Hmmmm...I'm feeling a bit better today, perhaps the zazen and Arvo Part's Te Deum are helping. I still don't know what to do about the boi, but I suppose that a decision will come to me when I have to make one...I just cannot rush it.

Go out and see Mars tonight! Or tomorrow night, or the night after..just go and see it! I wonder what my ancestors would have said 60,000 years ago as they looked up in the night sky and saw this brilliant light...

Heh, I wonder if they even had language...I hope they did, I certainly hope they did

posted by WM @ 20:39 0 comments

Eh? Say wha? Me no speak the english so good....

Yeah, so this afternoon was spent sitting in a room full of new international students (not by choice, they put an ACADEMIC HOLD on us so we would HAVE to go..how stupid is that?) watching such informational videos as "Cold Water" (A lovely quote from which is, 'I felt alone, scared and very very isolated....sniff....') and a mindless Campus Safety video while a middle aged balding desk jockey cracked insulting jokes about Koreans, Indians, Pakistanis, Koreans, Indians, McDonalds and oh did I mention Koreans?

His favourite Korean anecdote apparently is to say that every Korean man he's ever known likes dogs as their favourite animal.

Retch.

I had to put up with this for 3 hours !!!! And then I find out that I HAVE to purchase a $325 a quarter health insurance policy from OSU simply because I am an international student regardless of whether I have insurance from another provider or not. That's just plain ridiculous, and to my mind...ILLEGAL!

$1300 a year for health insurance? I think not! Oh and there are penalties too if you don't buy the policy..oh such as not being registered for classes! Oh yes, perfectly reasonable.....quite perfectly reasonable... My kitchen and bathroom are awash in white powedery plaster...it's hotter than I can stand outside and today is supposed to be a nice happy day.

It's my 3 year anniversary! Yeah, I came out 3 years ago :-) and just a year later on the same day I landed in Kobenhavn, Danmark....sigh...what a glorious, shining, golden time that was....and those memories have to be tainted with this!

Oh and let's not forget who called the other day. You guessed it, the boi called me out of the blue from upstate to tell me why he'd disappeared for most of the summer. Boy is it a whopper of a tale with all the elements of classic drama; stalking, heated arguments, a vicious beatdown, a late night cross-country road trip with nothing but the clothes you wearing, near nervous breakdowns...I mean his story has it all! The problem is it's so easy to believe because I know he's unbalanced, slighly nutty and has a mean-as-fuck ex bf... part of me's suspicious as well...He didn't call for nearly 2 months or email or anything like that to let me know where he was, whether he was alive or out of jail or on the lam in Saskatchewan (do they have internet cafes in Saskatchewan? They sure as hell have telephones!) and so now that I know he's alive and back with his parents are things supposed to go back to lovey-dovey normal? I was sure I would never hear from him again..I was used to that fact and had begun to move on..and now this..just what am I supposed to do?

It's a matter of trust really, and I just don't know if I can trust him, and I hate myself for feeling that way, but surely I have reason....

Happy 3 years.

posted by WM @ 17:36 0 comments

" Koba,

You have a lot to learn about MTW/VI. "

Ouch! Well that's what you get for having a slow-as-fuck school connection and playing SP campaigns all the time...a real human can kick your ass everytime...but I'm learning, oh yes I'm learning...

posted by WM @ 13:56 0 comments

Mmm...so I've decided to rejoin my clan but boy do I have a lot of catching up to do.. there are so many more units now, and counters, and larger maps and and and....At least I have been winning most of my matches online so I don't feel like a complete rookie. Curious?

posted by WM @ 15:27 0 comments

Numenorean


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Yeah baby! For a moment I was afraid I would be an Elf..nothing against blondes, it's just, you know..i don't take that much care of my hair :-D

posted by WM @ 20:17 0 comments

Now why doesn't the US have festivals like this one ? I mean really... who wouldn't want to go crazy with 40,000 fellow dance nuts yelling your bollocks off coz the DJ just dropped the Tiesto remix of Southern Sun? Fess up people! It's time for the US to get its own Creamfields! Oh wait...we kinda already do

posted by WM @ 19:06 0 comments

Bah, now the silly thing has all my formatting out of whack

posted by WM @ 18:15 0 comments

"You must remember this, a kiss is still a
kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A
classic story of love in trying times, chock
full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously
believe in true love, but you're also
constantly aware of practicality and societal
expectations. That's not always fun, but at
least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis
get you down too much.


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Casablanca my ass :-p

Billie Holliday does a mean interpretation of "As Time Goes By " though....

posted by WM @ 18:08 0 comments

It occurred to me sometime last night before I dropped off to sleep that I'm not really over Christian....big surprise, and I know certain Bulgarians are laughing and clapping their hands as they read this :-) (I know woman, I know!) Sigh... that man has ruined me, he's raised the bar so high for anyone I could ever possibly date that I fear nobody will come even close....damn him.

Has anyone seen the fucker? Where are you Christian? He's like some secret fag agent on a mission from luuuuurv or something. Agent Double-Oh Danish reporting for duty Sir!

It doesn't help that my lovely wonderful sleep was broken at 9 am by some weirdo pounding on my door...of course the moment I woke up and covered my nekkidness he was long gone. I suspect he was the building handyman come to fix my bathroom ceiling. Bet I have seen the last of him....dagnabbit.. My landlady does not believe in calling ahead to let me know these things..doesn't she know that's a tenant law no-no? Perhaps a gentle reminder is in order....Needless to say that colours my whole day piss-yellow...Thanks landlady...

posted by WM @ 10:09 0 comments

Yes well, corn fed bounty is one thing...pity sex with a 40 year old is quite something else. It's a shame really, because he seemed to be such a nice guy, charming, not bad looking but of course he was well past a gay man's shelf life; past 30 all life ends. If you have not paired up with a regular screw by then, you are condemned to being that slightly creepy guy hanging around at the edge of dancefloors trying so hard to mask the thinning hair around his temples... Is that what I have to look forward to at 40? Yechhh..good thing it's at least ummm, 20 years away..hehe..

So I was sitting in the bus trying not to kill the screechy Greek teenager two rows back when the skyline of Columbus came into view and he said, "Wow, it's really a city!" And the first thing that popped into my head was, "Shut up you daft twit, of course it is!" I felt like a mother hen defending her chicks...does that mean I'm in love with my city? I think so kiddies, I think so...Which is a strange feeling given teh fact that I've spent most of my time this week, glued to my computer now that I have cable internet...arrrrgh!

Pirates off the left bow!!

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